I have a lot of nightmares about those nights, how I hate being touched now even by people I love, how I could barely hold my brother in my arms when he needed me, how it all felt. Why is it so hard, physical contact. It's the moments i desperately want to hold someone, that I NEED to hold someone, that i hate my feelings the most in. Like why now, why now do I fear touch. Because of those days and moments. I flinched all the time, but that night when i thought i lost someone dear to me did i wish more than anything that i didnt flinch at their hugs..idk i might delete this ngl 😅sorry #FlipaClip #myart #sad #vent #venting #ventart #ventartist #art #animation #sadanimaton #ventanimatic #ventanimation #touch #tw #self #selfvent #selfart #joelgetup